Chapter 1: A New Beginning

Today has been a wonderful morning! I received a lovely note from a woman named Bea that truly brightened my day. It warms my heart to know that my daily reflections resonate with some individuals.

I also stepped on the scale and finally noticed a drop in my weight! It seems my body is starting to adapt to the new lifestyle I’ve been working towards. I must confess, during my kids' visit, we enjoyed a dinner out on their last night, and I had a couple of beers. Nonetheless, it's been about seven weeks since I reduced my beer consumption significantly. Just imagining I could have had nearly 100 beers in that span is astonishing!

This morning, I woke up at 6 AM, and I think I was dreaming about being female again, as I woke up with an unusual sensation in my mind. It's as if my body feels female when I wake from such dreams.

I decided to dress up in a lovely dress and my favorite flats, giving my best wig a quick shake before putting it on. Even without makeup, I feel glamorous. I’m contemplating whether I should change before my wife wakes up or just enjoy this moment. It would be nice if she could take the dog out this morning, allowing me to relax in this feminine energy. However, it’s not a big deal; I can always change after our dog’s walk.

Using Delta-8 THC gummies has really helped me find my calm. My wife often says I seem too relaxed, almost like I'm not myself. But I believe this newfound tranquility is a positive change—less anxiety means more comfort!

We have been exploring potential places to live in the U.S. as we plan our return, and my wife is leaning towards being closer to her children and family. After realizing that rent prices are quite similar across the country, we’re considering tiny home communities or trailer parks. I’ve never experienced either, but they seem like they could be a good fit for us.

People often have misconceptions about trailer park residents. I'm uncertain if the stereotypes hold any truth, but I've looked into some communities that appear to attract middle-aged individuals seeking affordable housing alternatives. We both feel that trying out a tiny home community for a year or two, much like our current adventure in Mexico, could be exciting. Perhaps it’s in our nature to explore and change locations every few years.

However, I wonder how those in tiny home or RV communities perceive transgender and LGBTQIA+ individuals. I trust that if I look closely enough, I can find a welcoming environment.

I often envision a dream where I sit comfortably outside our tiny home, sipping morning coffee while looking feminine, and everyone greets me with, “Morning, Anna!” (I did mention it’s just a dream!)

When searching for new places to settle, discovering LGBTQIA+ wellness centers with support groups and resources for therapists gives me hope. Conversely, when such resources are absent, I feel a sense of despair about being my authentic self.

At times, I ponder if my feelings of fragility regarding my gender stem from potential autism spectrum disorder intertwined with my gender dysphoria. It’s easy to become discouraged and lose hope.

I aim to be the best version of myself as frequently as possible. It’s simply logical that being open and honest contributes to feeling better and improving overall health. That’s when you know you’re on the right track: well-being leads to happiness and health, which in turn fosters attractiveness.

Thus, when considering future living arrangements, I prioritize locations that will enhance my mental health. While I’m drawn to warmer climates, many of these are often found in anti-trans red states. Yet, I’ve discovered some remarkable LGBTQIA+ community center websites in those same areas, offering support groups, therapy, and social events.

It seems that while the political landscape may tell one story, the people can tell another. Some red states still possess kindness, even if it’s not evident in their policies.

Chapter 2: Finding Community